I live in about six different worlds. One is school. One is home. One is church. One is past. One is present. And one is my future and all those dreams I have about it...
These worlds are composed of "subworlds," if you will, splitting my already di- (wait, what's the prefix meaning "six"?) hexchotomized life into about 17 worlds total. No big deal though. I mean, who doesn't have a bazillion different aspects of life that they must learn to balance, connect, and interweave with each other? The hard part for me is the switching over... how do you get to 17 different worlds in one day... ok, one month even? Physically is hard enough (if you can figure out how to get me from a meeting ending at 6:30 to a life group starting at 6, on time, let me know), BUT the hardest is mentally... My mind is like a nail... it's all about the depth, people. Start driving it into something and the goal is to get deep enough so that whatever needs to be connected (or hung) is CONNECTED (or HUNG!). Sometimes I wish my mind could be more like that wide packaging tape... so much surface area... "let's just get all the bases covered and focus on the next destination"...ya know, that kind of thing.
But no. I dig. And to uproot me just when I'm getting started...? shoot, talk about getting hit on the head with a hammer over and over again all day long. It's not a SUPER huge deal--I just haven't found my groove yet. I just need to figure out this "dance of life" (was that a song?). Anyway, Heaven help me, my many worlds WILL get more than whatever can just connect them at the edges!!!
uh.... well, only if Heaven helps me that is...
Maybe that's why I'm writing this... let's all just pray that Heaven helps me.
Oh.
And if you're wondering...
I LOVE those wonderful worlds in which I dwell... In the "school" arena: I LOVE my classes (almost all of them!), my friends, worship for chapel (my team and my supervisor--Travis O--you rock). In the "home" arena: I LOVE LOVE LOVE my family (my parents, sisters, and niece and nephew !), my long-time friends, even my highschool. In the "church" arena: I don't even know where to start--worship, lifegroups, friends/family, dreams and visions, realities--I LOVE the Stirring!
So this is the part at the end of it all where I just say, "My many worlds... ROCK." And I wouldn't trade them for... the world...???
4 comments:
you are a digger Jenna..a deep one at that..its what I love about you..among other things:)..but yes...the conflict of many worlds..I'm not sure if anyone has really figured it out....but for what its worth..I love that you're a part of my world:)
Oh, Jenna...sigh...I just think you're wonderful...really really wonderful. You are SUCH a good writer...such heart that beats out of everything you do. I pray you find rest from your many worlds and that the Lord continues to show you where He wants you. Thank you for being such a blessing to so many--it's such an honor to know you.
I'm so excited to be getting to know you and one or more of your worlds. :) See you tuesday
God has been showing me how to combine all of my worlds into one big megaworld. I prayed about my arms getting tired from switching between all of my hats, so God just gave me ONE BIG HAT...now my neck is killing me.
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